Day Nine-Someone I Would Like To Meet

Celine Dion,

Oh geez, I love you so much. You are beautiful, talented, a dedicated mother, a fighter, and a superstar. I think I have been a super fan for about 14 years. I have all of your English albums, and one album thats all French. When I was younger, I wrote you a letter. In my first letter, I told you that I was really sorry to hear that your husband had cancer. I told you that I was praying for a quick recovery, and it looks like my prayers worked! Rene is still alive and kickin'. I saw you in concert in Tulsa, and I cried. I can die a happy person now that I have seen you in concert. When I found out that my mom got me tickets, I collapsed on the ground and started crying like a big ole baby. I ran through the halls of my sorority house and people thought something was terribly wrong. It was the greatest day EVER. But the day of the actual show was even better! You are so incredibly talented! I screamed for you at the show and the old ladies in front of me turned around and gave me the stink eye. I gave them the stink eye in return. I hope to one day see you in Vegas, that is my ultimate dream. I think I might crap my pants. I admire the fact that you have tried so hard to have a second child. You never gave up! I admire that about you! Now you are pregnant with TWINS! I am so excited for you! Rene-Charles is going to be a great big brother!

I feel like we are best friends. I have stuck up for you so many times! People my age like to be haters. But I do not put up with it! I love you and your music! Keep On Singing!

Day Eight-My Favorite Internet Friend

Nick Verderame,

I thought it was fitting to make you my favorite internet friend, since we have never met in person. I am sad that I missed you while you were in Stillwater. But oh well, maybe one day Lo and I will make a trip out to Arizona and see you!

When we first starting chatting on Skype, you told me that you didn't feel like you really knew me because you couldn't creep on my Facebook. Still true. And then you asked me if you will be the first person I add on Facebook when it returns...I still think you will be! I appreciated that you seemed genuinely interested in learning more about me. I don't know why, but it made me feel kinda special. I think you are so funny. Thinking about the time that you went on and on about father/daughter relationships still makes me giggle. You're kinda weird. In a good way?

But anyways, congratulations on being chosen as my favorite internet friend. In 24 days our friendship will be taken to the next level...Facebook official.

Day Seven- My Ex

N,

I thought you were the most gorgeous guy that I had ever laid eyes on. I had the hugest crush on you from the get go, but I knew that we were very different. We started hanging out, and you gave me the benefit of the doubt. I always had so so much fun when I was with you. But, it wasn't me. I changed who I was to be with you. I pushed my mom away for you. Seriously?? You never really wanted to meet her, you never wanted to hang out at my house. Why did I waste so much time on you? We broke up, and I even went back to you. You taught me that it is so not worth it to change who I am for a boy. Never again will I make that mistake. I think I fell for the idea of you, instead of the actual you. I thought you were beautiful, charming, sweet, and funny. But in all actuality, you are a prick. My best friend hated you. I should've known. But, I thank you for teaching me some very important lessons. For that, I am thankful.

I hope you have a great and happy little pastor life.

Day Six-A Stranger

Dear Bearded Bicycle Man,

I see you often riding your bike through campus, or playing backgammon and smoking a cigar at the Student Union. You have crazy crazy hair, and a beard to match. I have asked people about you before. They say that you are a math professor, a philosophy professor, or a crazy man. You always seem to have everything you need on your bicycle. You also seem like they kind of person who talks about very deep things. You are an intellect, I can tell. I have always wished to know more about you. Maybe one day I will talk to you. Until then....enjoy your bike ride.

Day Five-My Dreams

If one was to write about every dream they had, the story would never end. I have a lot of dreams, wishes, wants, and goals. Maybe some I will never achieve. Maybe I will achieve most of them. I cannot wait to see.

I dream of graduating from college. I dream of being a Kindergarten teacher. I dream of falling in love with the man of my dreams. I dream of having total peace in my life. I dream of having four kids and an amazing husband who is my partner for life. I dream of traveling the world. I dream of making a difference. I dream of inspiring a student to be a teacher, just as Mrs. Dean did for me. I dream of not having baby sized boobs for the rest of my life.

This is really random and all over the place, but thats what my dreams are.

There are more. But that is all for now.

Day Four-My Brother

Nick,

Wow, could two siblings ever be more different than us? We are night and day. Chocolate and Vanilla. John McCain and Barak Obama. Sometimes we get along, sometimes we don't. I want the best for you bubba, I know that you have so much potential to do what you love. You are one of the smartest young men that I know. I still have faith that one of these days it is going to click and you are going to go to school, you are going to be successful, and you are going to be a talented and successful park ranger. I hate to see you struggle. I hate seeing you live a life unfulfilled. As different as we are, I do look up to you. You are my big brother, my bubba. You are funny, athletic, personable, and very very independent. You march to the beat of your own drum and you don't care what others think. These are all qualities that I love about you. I know that I give you a hard time a lot of the time for some of the choices you make. You are an adult, and you can make your own decisions, I just feel like they are holding you back. I want to see you do something that makes you happy. I just know that one day you will.

I wish we spent more time together. I am going to do better about calling and checking on you. I love my big brother and I want the best for you. You deserve it.

Day Three-Mom & Dad

I want to start off by saying how incredibly blessed I am to have 2 very dynamic and special parents. We have been through a lot as a family, and I believe that I have learned from every trial and tribulation that has been brought my way.

Momma,

I want to start by saying, I love you. You are one of the strongest women I know. To come from where you did, and to have gone through what you have, and still be standing today, makes me so proud to be your daughter. You are a feisty one. A good mom is one that the boys are afraid of! And, I am pretty sure that you have scared all but a few of the boys that I have brought home! It's ok though, they weren't winners anyways! I love that you tell me straight up when I am wrong, selfish, bratty, or any other undesirable traits, because you care and want me to be the best me that I can be. For that, I am so appreciative. Thank you for always having the best interest of me and bubba in mind. I will never be able to fully express the gratitude I have for you and for all you have done for me. But please know that I love you, I appreciate you, and I am proud to call you my mom.

You are the definition of a selfless person. You give to others even when you have nothing to give. You do the right thing, even if it means sacrificing something very important. These are things that I have observed and maybe not commented on, but I have definitely made note of the acts of kindness and graciousness you exhibit.

We have had our fair share of ups and downs, but I know that no matter what I have going on, I can always count on my momma to be there for me, to listen to me, to put me in my place, or to teach me a lesson. I love you with every fiber of my being and I know that I will always be your baby girl. I will always be available to listen or help. I know I may not make that very obvious sometimes, but I am working on it. You are my rock, and I love you.

BACK!!!!

Daddy,

You are the goofiest man I have ever met. You have so much love for me and I am so thankful that I have such a great Dad. You have provided me with so much love and support throughout my life, and I am so glad! You have tried many times to teach me things that would make me a well rounded young lady, and they just haven't worked...like changing the oil, checking car fluids regularly, CHECK YOUR ACCOUNT BALANCE! I don't know how many times I had to overdraft my account, to finally get the message. I know that must have been so frustrating to you, but you saved me each and every time. Each time came with a little lecture about how I needed to be more responsible, but in the end, I was going to have to learn my own way.

I love how you are always willing and ready to listen. And when you do listen, I get your complete and undivided attention. I am so appreciative to have a father like that.

I am excited to live with you this next year and have a grown up father/daughter relationship. OK, yea I know, I really don't think it will change that much because I will always be the baby girl. Such a terrible mindset! I need to break it...but I just don't know how. Your Mike Cole analogies always make me laugh. I think one of these days you are going to turn into him. NO!

Thank You for being an amazing daddy. I love you.

Day Two-My Crush

Boy,

It shouldn't come as a surprise to me that I am writing this to you. I have had a crush on you for about...4 years. You were my boyfriend once. I can't move on for some reason. You taught me so much about love and for that I am forever grateful. We have begun hanging out again lately...I like it. I think you're really cute. You're kinda funny too. You always comment on how immature I am and always ask how old I am...but you wanna know why I act like that?...You make me feel like a little kid. I feel free and silly when you're around.

You frustrate me though. I feel as if I am always 2 steps away from you. I have a feeling about you, boy. I don't think I am holding on for nothing. There is still love there. I can see it. Mom can see it. It will not go away.

I have the best time with you. I miss you. I love you.

Day One-My Best Friend

Avery Michal Johnson Walser,

I haven't quite gotten used to Walser yet, so I am still going to say Johnson! Wow, 15 years...that is a long time to be friends. Honestly, I cannot believe that we have made it that long. At times, you might have thought that our friendship was doomed, but I always knew we would be friends again in a couple days..or hours for that matter! We have had so many funny memories together...you pulling the fan out of my ceiling, driving an hour and a half for a cheeseburger, getting stranded on the side of the road in the heat of the summer, the bump, sweet tea every day after school, skipping class, The Elite, drinking with boys we didn't know and getting caught, and LIFE MOMENTS. I don't know what it is about our friendship that makes us work, but something is definitely different than other friendships. I will never forget when I called you to tell you that Levi and I broke up, you dropped everything that you were doing to come hold me, to listen to me, and to be there. That meant more to me than you will ever know. You are my best friend, my shoulder to cry on, my person. You have been there for me when other friends have not. I know that no matter what I have done, I can talk to you and find safety. You don't hesitate to tell me when I am wrong or stupid. And for that I am forever grateful. I have never told you this, but when you told me that you couldn't get married without me standing by your side, I have never been more humbled or honored to be your friend. It was hard...very hard. To give up my best friend to a boy was not an easy task, but I did it. I want you to know that I will not be able to get married without you standing right next to me. I hope you don't cry as much as I did though! I cannot wait to see what God has in store for you in Kentucky, America. I am dreading the day that I have to say, "see you later". It breaks my heart thinking about that day, but I know that a few hundred miles is nothing. We can take it. I know that a friendship like ours can stand the test of time and distance. I am so blessed to have met you, and I am even more blessed to have gotten you as my best friend in the whole wide world. I love laying in your parents bed talking about silly things, crying over the same dances, texting about dances during sytycd, talking about changes in our lives, and talking about our poops. I have a second family with you. I got the opportunity to have the sisters that I never had, a fashionista mom, and John Johnson. Oh John...

You are my rock, my safety, my best friend, and my sister. The wisest 21 year old that I have ever met. I cannot wait to see what the next 15 years has in store for us.

I love you.

Welcome!

I have never been much of a writer, but I have always wanted to be good at writing. I want to try this blog thing to see if it works out.

Huge changes have been occuring in my life the past couple months, and things are going to continue to change. The house that I have called home for ten years will no longer be ours. My mom is packing up shop and going on a journey. For the first time in 3 years I will not be returning to OSU, due to student teaching in Oklahoma City. My very best friend in the whole wide world got married and is moving Kentucky. It is difficult to not get stuck on these things and dwell, but instead I want to look at them in a positive light. I pray that mom receives peace of mind and maybe a sense of wholeness during her travels and journey. I pray that I don't go crazy living at home while all my friends are in Stillwater. I pray that Avery develops a sturdy base in Kentucky and is able to surround herself with encouraging people.

All of these things are scary, but can also been seen as exciting opportunities. I want this blog to be an outlet for all the things that I hope and feel and pray for my life and the lives of the ones that I love.

I recently stumbled upon a friend's blog and she is doing a 30 day letter challenge. I instantly knew that I wanted to do the same thing. I told Avery about it and we started creating our blogs instantly. So, with my best friend on board, I am going to be writing a lot of letters. We will write to old loves, current loves, family, lost friends, and even strangers among many others. It will be exciting, difficult, emotional, and silly. I hope to maybe find some things out about myself along the way. I am excited to begin this new journey and I am glad that you are along for the ride. We begin our letters tomorrow...